I have my first CAMHS session on Thursday. Hopefully this will do me some good.. I’m so miserable atm idk.. sick of making bad decisions that people try and blame on my depression but really, it’s just me being a horrible person. Cut up my arm real bad last night. Stings like hell every time I move now. I just want to sleep and cry. My best friend got back from New York, but I don’t have the energy to go see him. I’m a terrible friend. So sick of feeling like this. What makes it worse, is I have friends who have ‘problems’ that are getting all this attention and sympathy because they broadcast about suicide over facebook. It’s like, my problems aren’t real because I don’t tell everyone.