December 2010
73 posts
I can't do this.
Merry Christmas
I hope you all had a nice day, and if you didn’t I hope tomorow is better(:
now I’m going to sleep because I’m tired after trying so hard today. I think I did well. I also feel sick. oh well. Merry Xmas and a happy new year (oh and te doctor who Xmas special was GREAT!!)
25 minutes till I can get up
Eeep!! Gonna watch Lord of the Rings while I wait!!
I want to go to sleep, so when I wake up I can have a go at being a happy family. But I can’t fucking sleeep!!!!!
Merry Christmas One and All!!
I'm so so sick.
I need to tell someone what’s really wrong with me - but then I might get called crazy. I don’t want to be crazy.
“I miss you so much it hurts”
To the people asking me questions:
I would love to reply, but I can’t ):
so please, if you want to talk to me; lizzie-stars@live.com
I'm on the brink of insanity.
If something big doesn’t happen soon, my mind will just detoriate. I can’t stand it.
Sat here with my friends
Watching a film, yknow eating pizza and stuff. Wishing I was dead. I can’t keep doing this.
I’ve scratched all the skin of the underside of my elbow and my wrist. Fuck. I can’t go on like this, somethings gotta give
Doctor Whoooooo
Mmmmmmmm
Black Orchid - Blue October
Really seems to describe my life.
We had a school disco today. It was fun. I ended up being sat next to him when everyone else had gone up to dance - he asked me why I wasn’t dancing and I said oh I just cba. We just sat there for a few minutes, not talking or anything - just in a perfect silence. Then for no reason other than that it’s all getting too much too take, I started crying. Not proper crying, just a few...
Okay
So I have about 5 messages which I can’t answer because of my silly iPod. So, if any of you wanna talk to me or whatever I really reccomond you add me: lizzie-stars@live.com
and if you sent me a message, I’m not ignoring you - it’s just very rare I can get on here these days and when I can I seem to not be able to answer my messages.
Sorry, once again. I really suggest you add...
Oh this pain is just too real, this horror just too close.
It hurts so much.
Phycologist came into school to see me today. I lied. I lied and pretended everything was okay, like nothing was as bad as it really is. Fuck. If I really want help, I need to have the guts to get it.
Girl, Interrupted.
I love this film <33
If anyone wonders why I don’t eat at school, it’s not because I wanna be skinny. It’s because I want control.
“What do you fear most my Lady?”
“A cage.”
“Masters my friend..”
“You don’t have any friends, Nobody likes you!”
“Not listening, I’m not listening”
Today was a bad day. Watching Lord of the Rings and hoping tomorow will be better.
I thought I was getting better, but today I’ve got so much worse. I can’t bring myself to get out of bed :/
lizzie-stars@live.com (:?
I had fun last night, for the first time ina long time (:
I’m scared of my doctor.
Brb Russell Howard.
Oh well Keiran did cuz he’s awesome ;D
No one added me on msn, how am I suppose to talk to you guys now - I can’t answer my messages! ):
Something in my heart told me I must have you..
A brief bout with a razorblade cut me;
Add me on lizzie-stars@live.com.
Even if I can’t get on here I still want to talk to you amazing people.
Look guys - I’m really sorry but I won’t be here for a long time, find me on facebook ‘Lizzie Irvine’ my picture is the same as the one on here; or add me on msn: lizzie-stars@live.com
:D
In letting go I am so proud of what I’ve done
I’m so in love with you..,
If I believe in you, will you believe in me too?
I’ll try to answer my messages tomorow at school (:
I’m so so tired of life and these ‘friends’. I can’t even rant on here properly cuz it’s fucking blocked + I just cba. Eugh. I really fucking hate this.
“Power to the people, RIGHT ON!”
– John Lennon
